yes. jing committed suicide

Picture taken from xbox 360 Rainbow Six: Las Vegas game

I'm feeling absolutely shitty now

everything's in a mess!

I wanted to help my aunt renew her company's website and stuff but the people I registered the domain name with are confusing me by bouncing me from one person to another! GRRRR now i know WHY singapore's customer service is ranked the lowest out of 35 countries! =(

I'm trying to get a job too and everything's like paused, frozen in time. Internship? Maybe, but no response. Call centre? No replies to my emails. MOS? seems to busy to reply me also. they should just implement this "must reply" rule, like at least have the courtesy to reply people's emails right? okay maybe i'm just being grumpy haha!

I'm still deciding whether to go china with daddy too. i'm so torn man. on one side, it is a good opportunity to backpack and relish the beautiful scenery. also, it satisfies my dad as he is practically yearning for me to go. =x But then! no one's accompanying me and i swear that my dad will have tons of fun with HIS friends but what about me? no one's my age! or generation for that matter. i really don't wish to go there feeling so lonely and end up spending my days in bitter misery. 15 days of trekking and walking and whatnots. no offense, but i would like to inject some shopping or at the very least a few nights of hotel staying. =x a balance of both worlds, right?

how? how? how????

i thought this will be a relaxing holiday but i just i'm wrong. there's just so many things that are not certain.

someone save me. this is worse than sitting for exams. i rather have a school term and not worry about anything except studies. haha. on a hindsight, maybe not. lol!

okay i'm done with being grumpy. i'm trying to tell myself to live each day as it is and count my blessings rather than things that don't go my way. shall not be selfish to think about myself only. sigh. i have the tendency to do that i guess. ops. am striving to be a better person! :)

bought TimTams from candy empire today at Vivo! =D YUMS!

watching phantom of the opera with bestie tomorrow night!! so exciting!!!! =D =D =D i've been looking forward to it for ages! whee~

Albert Einstein: No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.