TIRED

I'm utterly exhausted, weary, deadbeat, burned out, drained, fatigued, haggard, over-worked, whacked and worn out. :(

and i don't know why.

okay maybe i knew. haha... there's just so much work to do, tuition to teach, friends to meet, errands to complete and things to think about that my mind just doesn't stop working! i used to be able to sleep alot during my jc days and be so bouncy in class (though i often doze off in lecture hee hee) but i'm always happy! but now it seems like everytime when i'm alone my lips will just turn into an inverted U and i'll just have this stone face. arghhhh

shuhui just said all my past blog entries are so happy. hahaha! now here's a very very very sad entry! =P

actually i'm not depressed, just very tired. seriously like today i was in coffee bean in taka trying to do my 105 assignment while waiting for huiwen to end school, i felt so tired that i almost wanted to faint. =x then while we were walking around as she finds her shoes i really had to drag myself and plop myself into every seat i can find hahaa! but it was good to see her though... i miss the times we had fun and chat about everything under the sun! =)

i miss i miss my jc days.. i miss my band switz trip so much that i almost wanted to drop everything and just take a plane there and enjoy the serenity. haha but it will be different cos last time i had the whole band with me. i miss ac's chapel every monday, i miss singing the school song, i miss the carefree days i had (even though my grades weren't that good heh), i miss playing music in band the most. although its very tiring to go for band prac after school but i'm always cheered up whenever we start playing all the songs i love, like pirates of the carribean, symphony overture etc. its just the effect band music has on me haha! i don't even mind dr. lee forcing me to play solos! =(

but times like that cannot be repeated and i know when i graduate from uni, i'll miss the fun cs lectures, interesting tutorials, eating hotbake toast, joking around with my friends and just sitting at the benches doing nothing haha!

every once in awhile, just let me indulge in my past memories and i'll continue with life again soon.. yep! :)

okay, another unproductive night haha... and 105 needs to be handed in on friday! crappp! stress =x

sigh i hope my dark circles and "sleepy" eyes will be cured soon. gonna sleep now. =)







i'm actually very blessed to be who i am now :)