Withdrawal symptoms

I feel utterly lousy.

well, i have tons to blog about, the men event that just passed, my results, upcoming stuff etc, but i really feel damn lousy now.

And its not about work. yes, i do admit work is starting to pile up, becoming more and more important but hell, no, that's not it.

its so ironic that so many things can make one happy (eg: having fun in office with two other angels and my boss) and yet one small thing can just dampen my moods in a second.

yep, its the feeling being left out of something.

the feeling of "hmm, i think the person don't really like me. But what have i done?"

so much so that i'm actually trying to hold on to tears now, while letting my mind wander freely, thinking of all sorts of possibilities that might be the reason, or maybe not.

Or perhaps its just the weariness built up over the past hectic week and i'm just feeling too tired to bother about this but it just weighs heavily on my mind.

Have you ever felt that way before? I should think so, because everyone feels insecure at some point or another.

sigh.

its really just a small small small thing.

but it seems so big right now.

=(