lousy

feeling so very very very very very lousy now

i want to protect my family, want them to live in a house without fears or anything and i don't like intruders coming in. Its in the deepest of my heart i felt fear, real honest fear. I'm even scared to leave the house for work tomorrow because i'm scared someone will wreck it. Its reducing me to pieces, leaving me huddled in a dark corner of the room. i'm trying so hard to be strong, to block people's lies and find the truth. Trying to not let fear overcome me.

because i love my family too much. really.

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God help me