changes

i feel like i'm getting more and more hot tempered after i started working at this jap restaurant. or maybe its just a lack of sleep. SIGH. i really need a day off. i can't remember when is the last day i had a day off to rest at home... two weeks ago???

like siew would say, ROARRRR

okay i'm really gonna start whining from here onwards. read at your own risk.

i really don't know whats with the managers. i mean, we all tried our best and they say our service is not good. something along the lines of we cant spot people calling for bill, we are not efficient enough blah blah blah. but what can you expect? we are all still learning!!! its only like, the fifth day of opening... and we really try our best to remember all the menu stuff and also notice for any special requests from customers. we smile always and are polite. we greet people when they come in, we bow and thank them when they go off, WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?????!!!!!!!!!!

fuck la.

i understand they need staff to work long hours because things are unstable. i don't mind not getting a day off or whatsoever. BUT AT LEAST UNDERSTAND THAT I'M TIRED AND I'M HUMAN SO I DO MAKE MISTAKES.

sigh. there's gonna be a major scolding session tomorrow morning at 8am and the managers say we have to be re-trained. i'm really sick of all these. i'm sick of them treating us like stupid idiots. i'm so sick of them for not talking it out with us before scolding us. i'm so sick of them having such lousy management that they don't even have a proper system to keep track of our working hours. can you believe it????

was so angry that i almost cried today. think my jap manager saw and he kept telling me not to be stressed and he would settle with my other managers. i know he's always trying to help us servers because he knew we really did our job. but then i feel so guilty cos everytime when the other managers want to scold us he's always the one taking the responsibility for everything. i feel so helpless.....

i mean, i really want the restaurant to do well also... not just for my pay but for the satisfaction of seeing customers commenting on good service and quality. but if i'm gonna get scolded tomorrow for nothing, its gonna be the last straw. i don't wish to be insulted for something that i put so much effort in.

argh. i'm going to sleep. maybe i'll have enough energy left to really shout back tomorrow. can't believe i would even do that. i have a high tolerance rate but if i'm being bullied there's a limit i can tolerate. lets hope they don't get to see my black face tomorrow.

sigh sometimes i rather go back to school and study and study and study and do tons of tys. seriously.