been home for some time now. decided not to stay for lecture and chem tutorial though i really did wish for more strength to stay on. ate some medicine for headache and flu and now waiting for the drowsy thingy to activate so that i can have a nice sleep. =)
oh and yah i'm using my old computer which has a new windows but my old one is "froze" till i can find a way to get back all my pics and mp3 songs. i guess the sudden lack of photos made me realise that things can be gone in a split second. nothing stays permanent and even pictures are just a memory of how things are in the past.
i always find that i blog about normal stuff, what happened everyday etc. but i didn't reveal many things like what i am really feeling. not that i don't want to but i know blogs public things and practically everyone sees it. but for now i'm quite sick of writing the normal things i do everyday.
siew was writing something on my econs essay question paper a few days ago and its chinese so it goes something like "i finally understand that love is not love anymore" think its some lyrics from a song.
its been many months.. learnt alot, thought alot and understood lots more. perhaps there are just some things that have to be endured to fully understand what it is about. i used to think life will be normal as always but i realised i have fallen too deeply to be able to completely clear it away. one year of memories does not just fade away like that. even though there are many differences and feelings of unease, all along you have been a real soulmate to me. even now i'm happy to have you to talk to. you may not know it but i will always miss hvaing you around because you do mean alot to me. all the times i acted indifferent is because the fear of letting my emotions show. but right here right now i just want to shout out to the world and let the tears run, the tension in me to fade and smile again tomorrow. =)
part of my heart still remains till the day i decide to set it free. some things are just meant to be the way things are for now and i'm contented to have many things to occupy me (books!!!) and of course all my friends!
still, siew's words are exclusively hers. denise, if you are reading this the neoprint you saw is just a nice memory. yanling, guess you finally understand why i didn't mention any eyecandies. (cos you are my ling-er! hahaa jk!!!!) siew, remember the promise i made for your prom picture! =P and though you always bite me (roar) you are a special friend! sorry guys i look very dead recently and rather silent too. hahaha. of course huiwen (though she won't be reading) my piggy forever!
so yep! there you go... i really don't know who might be reading but yah, this is just a once off cos i think i need to get some things out so that i can rest my case for now and recharge for more intensive studying. sorry to make you all read these. must be really confusing cos i don't usually bring this up. this took me an hour and a half to type it out but i really feel more relaxed now. =D i know people do care about me so hey, i will be fine! my jacket will always be there to take away all my unhappiness. heehee
people! study hard and i'll give you a hug if you feel tired! (girls only!) ^_^
P/S: ignore the spelling/grammar errors. too sleepy. =P
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